So, I know in my last post I talked
about not
apologizing for falling short, so I'm not going to. Just a little
explanation to those who may have noticed.
So I started to feel
guilty as Christmas completely snuck up on me this year because I hadn't done
nearly all that I had planned or wanted to. Usually I do an
immense amount of service to those that know and many that don't... Usually I pick out the
PERFECT gift for all those on my list... usually I do so much
MORE with the kids... but not this year.
This year I was
sick... (Oh PS. did I mention that I'm
pregnant and we're due to have a little boy in April... hmm.... oh well,
now ya know!) This year I was
tired... This year I was in bed
MUCH more than I think I've ever been... This year was
simple and not stressful, This year was
WONDERFUL!
Now don't get me wrong, I
LOVE offering service... left right and center... it makes me feel so much more like one of Christ's
disciples. I love knowing that someone's day was happier because I took a little
time to think of them. I
LOVE seeing my friends and family open that
PERFECT gift... I
love making gingerbread houses with the kids and
teaching them all about Christmas...
But this year I did something I
rarely do (at Christmas time or any other)... I had time to
myself.
Most of our Christmas shopping I did
online... and we did a big present for each of the kids and not much else, other than
stockings and maybe a book or 2. I did a ton of baking (which I didn't end up giving to anyone because I didn't have time). I still was able to get a
perfect gift for a few ppl... but I didn't go
overboard... I snuggled my kids, got things done around the house... lots of naps... and it was
great.
I felt
guilty for not being there for a few of my friends when I really would have liked to serve them more... but then I
realized that instead, I was there for myself and my family... and we really
needed that this year.
This pregnancy has totally
slowed me down... I haven't been able to do so much of what I usually do... but it's
helped others to be able to serve me, it's helped me take time out for me, which I know I
wouldn't have done otherwise.
It's made me
realize there's a time and a season for all things... and right now, is time for me to take care of me and my family and make sure
I'm healthy because unfortunately, I can't do all that I'd like to right now... but that's
OK... I can serve and do all that I want to again soon... the Lord just
granted me this little break to
regroup and remember to take care of myself... and I'm
grateful for that.
